3.15.15 … the Ides of March … lawnmowers and sabbath … Everyone succumbs to finitude … and I’m worried about lawnmowers … I wept …

“Solvitur  Ambulando” – It is solved by walking, 2015 Advent Labyrinth Walks (23/40),  Avondale Presbyterian Church – Charlotte:

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Spring … At 9:20 am, It’s 55 and sunny and spring is trying to burst one scene.  The birds are wild.  I see two robins and hear even more.
There is a helicopter  overhead … I always wonder why. And an airplane.
As i walk, I realize that it is very close to white noise surrounding me It is very peaceful.
The chimes are gently ringing, gently blowing in the wind, and the water is rushing in the fountain.  But then the robins go wild.  I played the robin call on my iPhone app as I walk.  I feel like Mary Poppins.  I want the birds to come closer,  come visit.
The sunlight really played with the arbor.
But then my peace was broken.  A lawn mower roars to work at the house at the backside of the labyrinth …
And so my mind wander to the concept of “sabbath.”  Since I am studying  sabbath at TMBS,  I realize l I am a very irritated with the lawn mower owner/operator. I think that, out of respect, the neighbors, well everybody, but especially neighbors to a church, should not mow their lawns on Sunday morning during worship hours.
It was interesting that lawnmower roar basically pulled together two concepts  that I am researching this week: Sabbath and dignity of difference. I feel sure that the neighbor had no idea the negative impact of his using his mower during worship.  In all likelihood he’s never observed Sabbath or never observed it quietly. He may even be mowing his lawn quickly before he goes to church at 10 o’clock.
Just cramming it in one more thing … busyness …
And now a few from my day … Beware the Ides of March ... What are ides?


īdz/ noun

(in the ancient Roman calendar) a day falling roughly in the middle of each month (the 15th day of March, May, July, and October, and the 13th of other months), from which other dates were calculated.

Becky, a high school friend who lives in Rome posted this today:

ROME 3.15.15

Beware the Ides of March. On our way home from the Sunday farmers market we came across this reenactment of the murder of Julius Caesar in Largo Argentina, where it happened 2059 years ago.

And this from Sandra Boynton on Facebook …

Boynton Ides of March

It’s not easy to beware the Ides of March when you’re not exactly sure what an Ide is.

Camino  Frances, The Way, Are You A Pilgrim?: And, yes, I want to go back …

I hope this ‘Special Preview’ captured more of my vision of the universality of the Camino and be a wonderful evocation of the best in humanity. What was spiritually uplifting, beyond the religious aspect of it, for me was meeting people from all over the world and realizing people are all the same, and that there is goodness to rejoice in.

via Are You A Pilgrim? Special Preview | Are You A Pilgrim? (¿Es Usted Un Peregrino?)

Before I Go: A Stanford neurosurgeon’s parting wisdom about life and time, The Washington Post, finitude, time, tortoise v hare, verb conjugation, death, pluperfect state: I wept reading it.

There are two strategies to cutting the time short, like the tortoise and the hare. The hare moves as fast as possible, hands a blur, instruments clattering, falling to the floor; the skin slips open like a curtain, the skull flap is on the tray before the bone dust settles. But the opening might need to be expanded a centimeter here or there because it’s not optimally placed. The tortoise proceeds deliberately, with no wasted movements, measuring twice, cutting once. No step of the operation needs revisiting; everything proceeds in orderly fashion. If the hare makes too many minor missteps and has to keep adjusting, the tortoise wins. If the tortoise spends too much time planning each step, the hare wins.

Verb conjugation became muddled. Which was correct? “I am a neurosurgeon,” “I was a neurosurgeon,” “I had been a neurosurgeon before and will be again”? Graham Greene felt life was lived in the first 20 years and the remainder was just reflection. What tense was I living in? Had I proceeded, like a burned-out Greene character, beyond the present tense and into the past perfect? The future tense seemed vacant and, on others’ lips, jarring. I recently celebrated my 15th college reunion; it seemed rude to respond to parting promises from old friends, “We’ll see you at the 25th!” with “Probably not!”

Yet there is dynamism in our house. Our daughter was born days after I was released from the hospital. Week to week, she blossoms: a first grasp, a first smile, a first laugh. Her pediatrician regularly records her growth on charts, tick marks of her progress over time. A brightening newness surrounds her. As she sits in my lap smiling, enthralled by my tuneless singing, an incandescence lights the room.

Time for me is double-edged: Every day brings me further from the low of my last cancer relapse, but every day also brings me closer to the next cancer recurrence — and eventually, death. Perhaps later than I think, but certainly sooner than I desire. There are, I imagine, two responses to that realization. The most obvious might be an impulse to frantic activity: to “live life to its fullest,” to travel, to dine, to achieve a host of neglected ambitions. Part of the cruelty of cancer, though, is not only that it limits your time, it also limits your energy, vastly reducing the amount you can squeeze into a day. It is a tired hare who now races. But even if I had the energy, I prefer a more tortoiselike approach. I plod, I ponder, some days I simply persist.

Everyone succumbs to finitude. I suspect I am not the only one who reaches this pluperfect state. Most ambitions are either achieved or abandoned; either way, they belong to the past. The future, instead of the ladder toward the goals of life, flattens out into a perpetual present. Money, status, all the vanities the preacher of Ecclesiastes described, hold so little interest: a chasing after wind, indeed.

Yet one thing cannot be robbed of her futurity: my daughter, Cady. I hope I’ll live long enough that she has some memory of me. Words have a longevity I do not. I had thought I could leave her a series of letters — but what would they really say? I don’t know what this girl will be like when she is 15; I don’t even know if she’ll take to the nickname we’ve given her. There is perhaps only one thing to say to this infant, who is all future, overlapping briefly with me, whose life, barring the improbable, is all but past.

That message is simple: When you come to one of the many moments in life when you must give an account of yourself, provide a ledger of what you have been, and done, and meant to the world, do not, I pray, discount that you filled a dying man’s days with a sated joy, a joy unknown to me in all my prior years, a joy that does not hunger for more and more, but rests, satisfied. In this time, right now, that is an enormous thing.

This article is republished with the permission of Stanford Medicine magazine.  Its author, Stanford University neurosurgeon Paul Kalanithi, died Monday night at the age of 37

via Before I Go: A Stanford neurosurgeon’s parting wisdom about life and time – The Washington Post.

Another somber note …

Death isn’t cruel, merely terribly good at his job. Vale #TerryPratchett

via Death isn’t cruel, merely terribly good at his job. Vale #TerryPratchett (with images, tweets) · ECUNews · Storify.


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